Does the Universe talk to you? Well, it talks to me. AND if you are not listening, it keeps on talking until you get the message…like it or not. Oh, and it can take years, if your dense, stubborn, or hard headed like me….it’s gonna get you the message, somehow, beware….lol! I wish I had an emotional overload protector, like a surge protector, for the difficult times….I really could have used it the past few weeks!!!
Like when, my uncle posting, Rita, you were born an angel of roughness; how you remained so stoic and level headed has always awed me. (Stoic: a person who can endure pain or hardship without showing their feelings or complaining) had me thinking about so many things…..and questioning my actions and life experiences. There was one person who came to mind immediately when I read it. Somebody I know I hurt with my actions and LACK of words & emotion….even though in the end I was REALLY hurting myself too! Crazy stuff. The good news is that he now knows I didn’t mean it, and that I am sorry….and I was able to let it go! Yay, I finally broke the cycle….way out of my comfort zone, but happy to be there….never going back!
There were very hard death and dying conversations with family, about wills, living wills, urns, and then a death in the “extended” family which made it all too REAL for me. And all at the same time there were isp technical glitches, pc crashes, the hacking of the blog server which was handled by Host Monster (thank goodness) which were all trying on the nerves…and the poor guy in the parking lot….who was totally obnoxious and really pissed me off….and lucky he didn’t get the brunt of it all….I could barely contain the NY’er within…but had to hold my tongue (to spare the 3 year old with him)!
Seemed like the emotional overload meltdown of the century….for many reasons I will not bore you with BUT I was left thinking what the #$^%?! Do I have a KICK ME sign on my back? Seriously…WHAT is the universe trying to tell me??!?! I had to pull out my Louise Hay books….and get a grip! It all made me think about overload….and how much is too much for us to handle….at one time?!?! Yes, I’ve heard the saying that God doesn’t give you more than you can handle. Not sure I like it anymore….lol! I honestly could have dealt with overdrafting my account by thousands better than I was handling this emotional “stuff”…..besides, I have overdraft protection…lol!
Of course I can laugh about it now……but at the time, I could not stay focused, get out of my own way, or log onto my computer!! Frustrating! A big thank YOU to my friend Julieanne Case who caught on, reached out, chatted on FB, twitter, and called me…we talked for hours! It really helped a lot. Sheila Thorpe, you made me laugh & smile from another continent and time zone, you rock! MWAH, to both of you!!! My SNCC tribe is amazing:)
The message from the Universe you ask? For me it’s that I need to be honest with those I love, true to myself…and let it go! None of which is easy for me!
Today I saw a post on FB that has me thinking again…….here’s an excerpt from Jolene’s post: ‘ask yourself am I doing this out of love or fear, as this question will answer many answers you may be seeking in your life’.
In the past I let FEAR interFERE….not anymore! Who wants to live in fear????
Hope you are making decisions based on love….as I did this week. It’s a really good feeling!
Light, Love and Hugs,
Does the Universe talk to you? What are you hearing? Any lessons learned? Has Fear been a factor for you? How had it affected your actions and decisions?